Most of the people around me would know that I hadn’t been feeling myself for many weeks now. So when I was kindly offered counselling, I thought for once about myself and my mental health and took it up. My counsellor has been amazing and really given me some incredible tools on the path to self care and strength from within.
Last Wednesday was my last session with them. Instead of being worried and scared that I would slip back to my old ways, I’ve come out fighting. I’ve never felt so motivated and excited to tackle life!
So, I’ve come up with a list. 25 things I want to achieve before I’m 25. Coming straight from my heart and from what I’ve been scared to do but wanted so badly, here is the list I came up with:
- Afternoon Tea at the Ritz
- Complete a Triathlon
- Stay out all night on a night out
- Go Glamping
- Go to Go Ape!
- Stay in a 5 star hotel
- Do a personal shopper day
- Do 10 push ups
- Go indoor rock climbing
- Try something new each week
- Get dropped off somewhere and find my way back without my phone
- Spontanious holiday
- Complete a game from start to finish in 24 hours
- Go a week without watching TV/Youtube
- Buy something designer
- Go to a festival and camp
- Go to a drive through Cinema
- Sit on Murray Mount
- Do a backflip on a trampoline
- Ride in a limo
- Escape from an escape room
- Build furniture on my own
- Go indoor skydiving
- Hike up Ben Nevis
- See Wicked live in London
Go after your goals, no matter how big or small they are. Fight for what you want in life. Let nothing stop you.
My diet this week has been terrible. I let myself down by giving into temptations and emotional eating rather than practically eating. I’ve been craving so many fast food meals it’s mad. But maybe thats because i’ve had a tough week? Old Laura used to use this food as comfort. Don’t get me wrong, the pictures your about to see look and were really tasty! But they definitely don’t give me a positive feeling anymore.
Normally I would have been so mad at myself. I would have been starving myself the next day or doing too many hours of exercise to punish myself. But you know what? I’m happy. Sure, I am a little upset and feel very sluggish for eating like I did, but I’m not going to get hung up over it. I’ve been enjoying life so much that my diet slipped. Is that so bad? And in fairness, those meals have just made me feel more motivated to get my diet clean! 2 lbs gained, but so what? I can get those 2 pounds off in a week no problem!
The thing is, I was very good at saying I didn’t have a problem with food. I’ve been on both ends of the scale when it comes to food, and still didn’t see any problems. When I was a teenager, I use to get so body consious that I would miss important meals so I didn’t put on any weight. Then once I started to get caught not eating, I would make sure that someone would see me eating. This then triggered the opposite issue of overeating. It wasn’t until 2014, when I got myself to 14 stone is when I realised what I was doing to myself.
I am a food addict.
I still obsess and worry over calories. I still make excuses why I can eat that doughnut or 2. I always will have this problem. The difference now? I’m ready to take care of myself. I’m ready to take care of my body, and I realise how important it is to fuel your body right. So though everyday will be a mental battle against food, I am determined to win. I’ve been winning for 2 years. And hopefully I shall be winning for many more years. Sure, life will get on top of you, but it’s not about punishing yourself. It’s about enjoying the ride. Use a bad week to fuel a good month.
Back on this week with my nutrition.
This time last year, my wonderful boyfriend became my incredible fiance. I am so grateful to have such a supportive man through everything, and I can’t believe I’m the lucky woman that gets him for life. With the wedding now becoming the main focus in our life, the first fear I have is the dress and my confidence in the dress. I’ve been so obsessed with making sure Chris is happy, I find myself thinking less and less about my actual happiness. Loving someone else starts with loving yourself. Self care really does reflect on your relationships and life.
For a very long time, I didn’t take care of myself. I either ate too much or too little. I wouldn’t care so much about my appearance. And I definitely didn’t think I deserved love. But if there is one thing Chris has taught me in the time I’ve been with him, It’s that confidence is so powerful. You want something that bad, you can do it. Positive mind, positive body, positive life. Once everything is set, there isn’t anything that can stop you.
So for all my fellow brides to be, my ladies who don’t need no man and everyone in between. Be strong. Be happy. But most importantly, take care of yourself. Because you are important, and you deserve not only to look but to feel happy. And you can do it! Because you deserve to.
You’ve done it! You’ve hit your goal weight!! Now what?
This is my problem with quick diets. You can loose the weight fast, but 9/10 times it will go back on once you reach your goal! I tried a meal replacement diet recently – Protein World 7 day Slender Blend collection. For 7 days, all I had to do was replace my breakfast and lunch with these shakes, and take the fat metaboliser and the hunger buster capsules with them.
The shakes at first were a little sweet for me, but as the week went on, I found that my palette adjusted and I started to really enjoy the flavour. I tried to make sure I didn’t get bored of the taste by varying them up. I used either almond milk, skimmed milk or just plain water, and that seem to work fine. But even with mixing it up, I found was just missing eating food! Sure, I was still eating one ‘real meal’ a day, but having liquid for the other two just took its toll. That whole week, I felt so low with energy that my body felt like it went into survival mode! I struggled to concentrate, my running felt more strenuous and I felt so tired!
Don’t get me wrong. I followed this plan as closely as I could, and became 6 pounds lighter in a week! These kind of diets are great for if you need to drop a few pounds before a big event. But I would never encourage anyone to keep on a diet like this. Sure, it may be an extreme example of a diet. But some people do try and keep these up! Do yourself and your body a favour. Eat 3 clean meals a day and exercise to keep healthy. And remember one thing:
It’s not a diet, It’s a lifestyle change.
So the next time your hoping you can find that ‘quick fix’ pill or diet that can get you slim, just remember. Results can only last with a lifestyle change. Diets can help to kick start weight loss, but they aren’t going keep results. And they certainly wont make you happy!
Music has always been a huge part of my life. From playing clarinet to sitting in my room blasting my favourite tunes. I always used it to escape from what was going on in my life. I get so much of my motivation and determination from songs. Just closing my eyes and letting the music build up inside of me is a really powerful tool.
The right song can really push you to the next level of a workout. Everyone has those songs that get them going and pushing boundaries. Doing all my running, I have a few that really get me to the end of my 5K.
Have a listen:
Power – Little Mix
Unstoppable – Sia
Centuries – Fall Out Boy
Get Low – Dillon Francis
What are your Motivational songs?